Ask Madden

What up. Let me start by saying fuck debate, fuck mock trial, fuck life, fuck liberty, fuck the persuit of hapiness, fuck your mom, fuck me, fuck everything. I am sick and tired of spreading myself so thin I make anoxerics look like overeaters. I hate how I do hours of rewrites to have them spat in my face. I hate how I try and try but am repetedly told what a shitty person I am. I am so done with wasting my time with extra activities which have no reward but the bullshit feeling of accomplishment. Since when does doing something more than sitting on your ass make you feel good? Sure if I saved some dog or something I'd feel good about myself, but taking on three activities at once when each requires a ridiculous amount of dedication and hard work is not rewarding. Its not even in the middle. It just flat out sucks. It sucks so much that were it not for certain people and certain things, I would be halfway to hell right now. I am sixteen years old, why the hell do I have a college size workload on my hands? Why do I not even have time to scratch my ass I am so overworked? When did it get this bad? Fuck the answers, I want to go back to the time when I could play lights out and feel accomplished. Fuck this "glory" involved in being smart. I hate it. I want to end all of this fluff and focus on things that really matter. Unfortunetly I am not a quitter, so I will be up until two every night this week. And I will suck so bad at debate, and being a lawyer, but I will suck with style. And I will not give up, even if I don't sleep until Jordon has insulted every family member of mine twice, and me more than I can count with all my digits. Oh wait, I guess I can go to bed now.

(Added note 11:26 pm) Karen is the shit.

Fuck Debate. Fuck Life. Fuck Applesauce.
Sitting here next to Joefi in his dads office both of us on simultaneous computers trying to make up for our horrible procastination. Today sucked. I woke up and went to Debate to look like a major assbag because we didnt have shit, But its cool cuz well look mad good. HOLLA AT MENS WAREHOUSE!!! Then when i got home my mom and I went to mall to go see the Jesus flick but it was all sold out which sucked. So after that i went to WatchWorld to get this phat kenneth cole watch that i cant wear for like 3 weeks till i get the extra links for my "frists" as darin would say. Asshole. Then i came home and watch the making the band marathon with my sisters. It wasnt the Florida white kids making the band, it was ghetto black dudes making the band where they all almost kill each other. Good shit. Now i sit here Blogging in the middle of work time at Joefis house. I need some fucking direction. Im a louse. Anyway its times like these where i wish i never had joined any clubs and had dropped out when i turned 16. It woulda been so much better if i woulda dropped out, got my ged in month, go to RCC for two years and then be fucking set cuz i would work mad hard then transfer to a good school.BAM im fucking 1.5 years ahead. Im a fool. Ah Cest la vie. I wish i Knew what that meant.
CARPE CANEM!!

yo yo...today was madd interesting. First in drama me mark jofi and kevin all got little kids to be mentors to....or them mentor us, not sure which. My kid is madd shy but thats cool, mark's is ruthie's brother, joey, but he's like 13 or something so he dont count, jofi's is ricky's little brother, he's madd cool, kevin's is this 4th grader named kevin who wears a gap sweathsirt tucked in, he's so cute i jsut wanna squeeze him till he explodes. Then after i went home and napped and then went to dar's to do debate stuff. Atfer that chilled wit reza and kevin, went to mall, did nothin. Atfer that i was gonna go home but on the way decided to go the long way, to the bear mountain circle then up 9w. But when i got there i decided to go an even longer way, well it wasnt a way, i jsut drive. I went on 7 lakes drive and jsut drove, turned of my music and jsut drove on dark, desolate roads. It was a very interestign experience. It was scary, yet very empowering. everyone must try. but u hafta be by urself. (i know, i'm very weird). luckily i have a nav system so when i ended up in tuxedo i jsut clicked home and went home, but still drove around some more. i need a life

(i'm spittin this from a black point of view)

everones got a problem with the way we wanna live
and they can try and stop us but not a shit that we would give
they can price everything but dont give a shit about the values
they dont know we can find comfort even in something we found used
thats how we truly live if you aint got no love dont hate
cuz u'll wind up wakin up at least a month away from this date
we got thousands of miles to row before we get our freedom
my niggas try the bennigans those crackas wouldnt feed em
so racism still alive, i guess it's merely jus disguised
i know ammendments werent made so they could just be improvised
them crackas won't affect us, got our hands in the air
dancin to rhymes some wigga wrote bout shit not bein fair
i aint gonna say whipped cream is soft like a babys behind
cuz nothin gonna follow that u gotta think about the rhyme
so shit goes down we toss n learn about our crazy roots
shit that our people lived through needs respect, word thats the truth

yo yo....

[Beatbox]

Whipped cream in the house thats down the street
I comin here with this phat ol' beat
Chillin at the diner for some chocolate milk
Bustin out this rhyme that is softer than silk
Whipped cream is soft like a baby's bottom
But there aint nothin that u can do if u wanna stop him
ridin' down the street you can hear
the pumping of the hearts, that is their fear
Cuz if u know ur shit then u best move out
before whipped cream makes you pout
trigga finga here, bling finga there
you betta step back cuz it wont be fair


peace nucka

[Beatbox]

White Thought been taught by the best around
Matty K what up with the illest sound
coolest kicks in the cave dress to impress
the milano mix master man he the best
and White Thought on the scene like scarface gunnin
got the pigs scared shit, hit the deck start runnin
the mic is a tool that i use to rap
White Thought, not bought, i aint fo' no crap
just spin the beat and i rock the mic
now you heard, spread the word, to gangstas alike

Peace nucka

i get down for my grandfather who took my momma
made her sit in that seat where white folks dont want us to eat
at the tender age of 6 she was arrested for the sit-ins
and with that in my blood i was born to be different
now niggas cant make it to ballots to choose leadership
but we can make it to jacob and the dealership
thats why i hear new music and i jus dont be feelin it
racism still alive they jus be concealin it
but i know they dont want me in the damn club
they even make me show id to get inside of sam's club
--kanye west

yo yo...week is goin by rather quick i think. In english today chris spat a spitball in the air attempting to catch it in his mouth, but he missed and it landed in lucia's bag. Then in health we were makign chart bout stress. This one group but down "police" as stressors and "shooting at the police" as negative ways of dealing with stress. During fisics Stu and Pat tried to convince Mr. Leung that paper didnt have atoms becuase it was dead. After skool we ahd mock trial, was good, we won. While i was eating pizza be4 gettign on the bus i had jofi roll down my sleeves cuz i was cold and my hands were occupied. Now i finshed the module, but still got lottsa debate work to do. Meh, once speeches are done it'll be easy. I would kill myself so i wouldnt hafta do all this work but i'd be afraid of Mrs. Palmero somehow getting me in the afterlife and somehow causing harm to me.

What up. Joefi here, reporting in from the glamorous North Rockland computer lab. In class essay for AP english = do nothing all period because I'm lazy. I hope this period goes fast because boy am I hungry. Can't wait to hit up the glamorous North Rockland lunchroom for some grade A food. Lookout Cornell, theres a new cafeteria staff in town. I'm sitting next to Nicole Pagnotta, discussing blog politics. To be quite honest, beyond my sarcasm, Nicole has been an inspiration to all of us, in fact her blog inspired the creation of countless other, even the original Ask Madden and Me and Matty K's first attempt at a blog [Goofus and Galant]. Ok, enough. Wow, its very interesting to see someone else blogging before you see it posted....I'm watching Nicole make one of her infamous lists, this time its about killing herself. I'll save the details so you can go read it yourself. Anyway I'll sum up the day, or what actually happened so far (not much). Wind ensemble, meh. Second period was hardcore soccer, also known as the ankle crusher, where I took a ball in the face defending our goal. But god damnit, Dwyer still let one in. Oh well. Third period dropped into Kar Kar's class with Samoylo to see what was happening, then slept/kicked ass in pheonix during math. In Zollo's class today for some reason the custodians think its funny to take our desks away one by one, and since I was late I got the seat of honor at Zollo's desk. Holla. Now I'm in English doing exactly what I've been doing all day. Nothing. Still, I'd rather be sleeping. Or doing drugs. One of those.

BLACK HISTORY MONTH QUOTATIONS:

week1:
"there's no shame in being black...none at all.
...it's just very inconvenient at times."
-booker t. washington

week2:
"you have seen how a man was made a slave; you shall see how a slave was made a man."
-frederick douglass

week3:
"for every shell niggas bust, we bust at oursleves
can't tell these niggas nuttin tho, bullets wake em up well."
-nasir jones

bonus quotation:
"what did the five fingers say to the face?.......SLAP!"
-rick james

Hey everyone!! mark here. reporting from my computer, as usual. ***NEWS FLASH*** i cut school yesterday.. normally that is not something that i would do, but i just plain didnt want to go to school so i spent most of the school day sleeping, then at 1pm i went up to my GRANDMA"s house!!!! i chilled there for a while with the G'RENTS..... so needless to say i ate and veged out. then i went to drama, then at the end, when most of the torture was over, adam pulled a "Mark moment" if u dont know what that is, then u dont hang out with me enough. its when u ay somehting that isnt right, but its just words that are wrong, but if ur a true OG u can understand what is meant. so adam mixed up the piano and called it a computer. im such a bad influence.
well then moving on, i had time in between rehearsals so i went up to my grandparents house again and hit the weights and the bag, before hitting the songs in rehearsal. yup hittin the songs, thats how we do it--IM RICK JAMES BITCH!!!!
so today was a new day, i got a 21/40 on my maph so i can only retake it for up to 70% so i had to stay after today to find out that i just messed up bc i was rushed, so i should really be allowed to take it for an 80% but im not arguing, bc mrs. ryan is madd nice.
back up---yesterday in drama, some girl didnt believe robert barron was actually gay, it was soo funny bc he was trying to explain it to her, and she was just nay-saying, it was alana, she must be really thick.
so HANDBALL WAS HARDCORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TO THE MAX TODAY!!!
it was crazy, like if u were there, u would have been crying or been sooo pumped up on adreniline that u couldnt see... yeah that crazy, the seniors got cheated out of like 3 goals though, but big D is awesome, so that made up for it.

post more later

// posted by Mark @ 4:55 PM

yo yo....so this mornign i was woken up to my little sister vomiting in the bathroom (one of the most hated things, vomiting, holla back to find the other 2 on the list of top 3, someone out there might actually know:)). Then she was afraid to go to skool cuz she didnt wanna puke at skool cuz that'd be embarassing. So she went to skool, yet when i got home she was there! why? cuz she puked all over her desk at skool! so of course i assured her no one would forget and she would eternally be known as the puke girl...mwahahahahahahahahahaha

i think the one thing people underestimate about me is my selfishness.

yo yo....question to all readers which i think will make everyone learn more about everyone......


*What is one thing people underestimate about you*

yo yo....what's good for the goose is good for the gander

What up. Time for my daily ten minute love affair with writing. First off we need to analyze the situation. What happened to Adam posting every day? His anecdotes and thoughts are missed. Mark posts every day (+) but he writes much like he talks (-). Whatever, keep posting. As for me, nothing new to share. Today was a semi-good/bad mediocre day. The good part was Morgan's return from Florida. Glad to see her back in NoRock, but everything is as boring here as every. Bad part was that for the fourth time in a row, I was forced to get up (on my vacation, sigh) at 9 AM to go to drama. Now I enjoy drama, but 9 AM sucks balls. Not just little puberty balls, huge ass pornstar post pubescent giant ass balls. Man, these are huge balls we are talking about. Oh man. Time to get a new mental image. On to the mediocre part: I don't remember what it was, it was so bland, and lacked any sort of extreme to make me remember. Use your imagination. I just had a thought, does anyone ever say the phrase "totally bangin" anymore? I think its pretty cool, gotta use that more often. I can smell the comment from Matty K a mile away. Man he is going to get on my case for this one. Ok, I'm done with this. Last thought of the day: my mother agreed to get a dog. I'll be needing help in the purchasing process. Peace

howdy y'all!!! i can honestly say that today was much better than yesterday, adn tommorrow promises blue skies also {those are figurative blue skies}.
so drama this morning went well. it seems that i do the same thing everytime i come on, i go into a group, sing, move, sing, get offstage. the only exception to that is when im the bishop, i like that part better than my other ones. But meh, it was still rehearsal, and i love the empty chairs and empty tables song, its soo sad. i love sad songs. I want to make a cd, that is all sad songs, that i can listen to in the dark, on my bed, and love them. hmmm on second thought, ill wait for someone else to do it. If u plan on doing it lemme know in a "holla back". i would greatly appreciate it.
ok so continuing on wit my day. i go up to my grandma's house, get lunch and finish watching "Bambi". i am on a big disney kick for some reason. oh wait i know the reason. I HAVE NO LIFE. sry i almost forgot
so then after that i wanted to ball, but Adam was busy napping, and i didtn have brian's number, so i called up liz and we balled at theills for a little while. but i got cold (my hands were, red, green, purple, and orange) stupid circulation. so we played on the playground, which i was way too big for. Then i went into the car, and for some weird reason i let her drive around the parking lot. whatever, she wasnt that bad of a driver. Its all good.
so now im procrastinating about doing my hw, i hate hw. but tommorrow TO THE CITY I GO
im gonna go see the taping of "Who Wants To Be a Millionaire" and head down to little italy for some chow. so see everyone on mon!!!

p.s. there were also these 2 little kids at the park, they thought they were tough stuff, but i couldda whipped both their asses in any sport, like they had a foot race,and the mom was like "wow ur so fast" im like this lady is an idiot, they cant be older than 5 and they suck at everything they do, i wish they wouldda challenged me to a race, I WOULD HAVE DESTROYED THEM!!!

hey there everyone!!! despite the amount of exclaimation points, im not that excited. All day during drama today i kept getting stuff in my eyes(-19), GOD HOW I HATE GETTING STUFF IN MY EYES!!!! so then i actually hit my high notes today(+) but i wasnt as consistent as i would like to be(-), the stage looks good, even though it is just wood for the time being(+). if u havent figured it out, im scoring my day, if it end up + then i had a good day, - means i had a sucky day. I went up to my grandma's for lunch (+120). I then went to get my oil changed(-2) i saw richard marcus there (-5) , not that i have anything against him, just looking at him doesnt make me happy.
Then off to get an ad from a place that promised us one yesterday (+), get told taht he cant write checks after 3pm when i go at 4:30(-120), my pride hurt on that one.
ohh yeah JONATHON ROTH WAS AT PRACTICE TODAY (+50) the thenardier gang sucks besides me and joefi (-250),
later Stephen came by and gave me the leather jacket, he then helped me bring in a new tv for the cape cod house, and stayed for pizza(+100) yea friends! but then joefi, adam, and kevin go to joefi's house for a movie and i cant go(-145) i did excercise, but that was by myself so it evens out.
so overall my day..............SUCKS!!! i might as well drowned

What up. Tonight I decided to treat myself to sushi. Since I purchase this fine eating at Ocean Empire (which you may recall is a chinese restaurant), I got a fortune cookie. The sushi there is awesome, it makes me want to wet myself with hapiness. But my fortune is the reason I decided, after two instances of breaking my promise to blog every day, to post once more. I go through violent mood swings, and I am not always in the mood to write if there is not something inspiring my creativity. Could be a thing, or something that happened in my day, or even a person that I have a particular fondness of. But muses and inspiration aside, here is tonight's cookie prediction: "The road to success is often a lonely one". First of all, that just plain sucks. Is it saying that I have to be alone to be successful in life? Or that if I follow my heart I will be poor forever? These things are too vague. It does not take into account if your idea of successful is a loving partner or a family. Wtf mates. Maybe it specifically says 'often' because there are exceptions and I can be one. Or maybe I am doomed to be lonely. Who really cares, I have sushi.

yoyo...i was so happy that you guys suprised me at school! totally took me off guard. no one talked smack after you guys left, but emily did say that she liked you guys very much. true story. my directions rocked hard, i don't know what you're talking about adam. i wrote them out AND drew a map. whateva man. and don't judge college by rutgers. ugh jersey waters. i know all too much about that.

HEy there!!! just came back from ballin wit adam adn BRYAN, it was awesome. WE went to the haverstraw rec center. CHARLENE WAS THERE!!! Charlene is soo chill, she said hi to us and everything, so thats why we didnt get beat up. Bryan is madd good, he should really try out for the bball team, he could make point guard. Oh Fronz was there and he said "whats good?" when he saw me, i remember he came wit manny to bob's house, hes soo cool, i wish i knew him better. oh well.
Drama was aight this morning, Danya said that liz was on vacation, so she missed out on rehearsal. All these girls were talking about me and laughing at me when i needed to sing high and it made me want to cry, like seriously want to cry, like hardcore. :'[ and then a bunch of girls were touching me, it was all weird, they were touching my chest adn ass, i didnt really like it, it made me uncomfortable.
The worst part of the day was Freaking Christa was taking pictures on that damn camera phone, i wanted to kill it. She kept taking candid shots and i HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE PICTURES OF MYSELF!!!!!! unless i like them, but i didnt, they all sucked and they were doing it while Mr.Roth was talking, and they were bothering me, i didnt like today. Then on top of that some girl said that i sounded like a frog, so i hope that she dies.
All in all DRAMA SUCKED, i quit, dont expect me in it anymore, its more trouble than its worth. Im changing my career options, im turning into a pro bball player, all i need to do is grow 6 inches and im in.
aight hope everyone elses day was better than mine.

What up. Joefi is open even at this hour. You can read great, even late. Today sucked and was really boring up until my mini adventure to the mall. I visited Matt and resolved to get a job at FYE when drama is done. I'm giving it some serious thought. Then I got a hat. Its like one of those beanie hats that you see all over the place. Now normally I don't look very good in hats, but this one I like, so I decided to wear it. It doesn't look half bad on me. Then me and Matty K freestyle jammed for an hour or so. It was an all out acoustic lyrical free for all. It was fun. Through song Matty K released all of his emotions. Then we met up with the returning college kids for some diner eating. Reza tried to show us some persian, but we're dumb. I looked at Marks notes from college, very funny. Clifford vs. Hitler, round two, fight. I got home and realized hats give you hat hair. Especially my new hat, it looks like someone just dropped a bomb on my head. Like my head and a blender got into a fight and the blender won. Ok I am tired of moving my fingers so the last bit of news is: The new $10 Joefi question is here. $10 to any person who can correctly identify what Matty K inadvertantly confessed in his song lyrics while we jammed. Your answer must be in the form of a holla back. Matty K cannot play or help, or the competition is void. Good luck.

jesus schwartz!

yo yo....jsut got back from our 2 day college tour. So we left sunday night at liek 1130, cuz we wanted to wait for reza to get out of work. We got to rutgers, got into his room with a sleeping roomate, put our stuff down and walked around. Got some food then chilled in the lounge in the dorm hall. There is this room we call the crazy room, has graffiti and weird shit written ALL OVER. So we hugn out in the lounge, and when steve left for a minute we all hid. He founs us all exept for me, cuz i there master hider. I hid behind the vending machine. I was gonna jump out when i haerd the pressing of buttons cept i saw in a reflection it was some weird guy. I was praying he wouldnt find me cuz that would be very awkward, he didnt, all good. SO after that we went to sleep. SUCKED. small room, 4 us came...lets jsut say i was curled up in a ball in front of the door. Luckily his roomate cut his 8:10 class....and his 1:20 class. His roomate is real cool, althopugh didnt get to see him that much. meh. So at 11:30 was music theory, We all went, me and mark were excited becuase we know music theory madd good. they were doin easy stuff. When we got in the 12 year old looking teacher asked kevin's name, he said "rodriguez", he then shuffled through papers and then asked, "did u hand in the hw" he said no, we all said nope when he asked us. lol. So next was the class that changed our opinions of college forever....western relations with the middle east...

COLLEGE SUCKS

This class was soooooo boring. The professor looked like a bald detective(the one from "screwed", starrign norm mcdonald and dave chappelle), he just read and talked ab out all thsi random stuff and u could barely hear him, for the whole hour and twenty mintue class. It boggles my mind how one can succeed in that class. After that we stuffed our faces with food. We got to dining hall at 3, dinner foods werent served till 4 so we ate, chilled at the table digestign till 4, then ate again. After that we went to gym and played basketball and lifted. Then we packed up and bounced and surprised meagan at Montclair State. We found her dorm building and the people at the desk asked who we were. We said we were visitng our friend meagan, he called her and when he asked oru names i immediately said george, mark said mike, kevin said phil, reza said joe. She came down and was way surprised. We went up to her room, her room was a lot nicer than steve's. They all were. We met some her friends, i tried to be personable to them , reza thought we amde fools of ourselves, meh, who knows. She said we cracked her up and told meagan we were cool, prolly lying, although meagan swears she wasnt. Then went back home and had another diner experince with jofi and matty k joining, good times. what we learned on this trip.....COLLEGE SUCKS!!!!!!!!!

Andrew(steve's roomate)-"steve, i'm tired, i'm not goin to class, sign my name and take notes. Then i'll go on wednesday and take notes and U can stay here."

p.s.- we took notes in all our classes, howveer our notes during the middle east class consited of me having internet convos on paper(using internet jargon, screenames, the whole 9 yards), steve drwaing pics and having us guess whether they were boobs, asses, or vaginas. And of course mark depicting a fight between Clifford the big red dog and hitler, he uses baby jews as weapons.


COLLEGE SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yo yo....today was a very good day in fact. I woke up at 8:55 to go to drama(i was really thinkin bout sleepign till 930 cuz i was soooo tired). did the drama thng, went aight. After that was ad deal, i went with veronica and Brian. They're both madd chill, it was fun getting to know them better. Then we went back and ate lottsa pizza. I went to mark's house to work out with him, punched the heavy bag a lot. After the first 5 minutes iot fell off the ceiling, but we put it back up. it all good. Continued to punch my little heart away. Went home and got ready to go to Jono's. It was really fun, except for logn wait, but its all good, cuz there was awesome music. There was a live jazz band, they were awesome. When matty k showed up he brought valentines day gifts...he got us FYE employee shirts! yay! The quote of night was...
*setup*-the guitarsit's dog died the day earlier
Jofi's Dad:"man, his dog died yesterday....thats "ruff"
Matty K: hahaha....................its really dead?! that IS ruff!

Kevin: (said triumphantly after music stopped) "i like music"

So afetr that we came home and met up wit reza and went to gong's and played lights out, madd hardcore. Then we went to diner and thats where fun began. For some reason after we go to diner late at nite we always get very giddy. reza was cracking lots of fat jokes to kevin, most of which were very clever. Kevin know apparently owes reza a back punch.

hey readers. today was aight. a little of a waste of time, very little productivity, but nothing that i could have changed. had drama early {its not really early compared to jumping in a pool at 6:30am but it felt worse bc now that swimming is over my body was ready for a big relaxation break} so i headed out when i realized that my sneakers were still at the school, which is where i left them, so i decided to casually dress in pajama pants and slippers, and then switched to sneakers when i aquired them. all is good, i guess, at this point, then we had to sing. BOY DO WE SUCK. actually we have a lot of talent its just that i miss nick and there is a big gap in my singing heart when he isnt there to give me notes. :( well whats done is done.
I had to watch scott last night so i decided to go to a movie, it was like a date though, bc i had to pay for his sorry ten year old ass, since he cant scrap up some money on his own. so over the river and through the woods to cinema six we go, there was no way in hell i was to attempt the mall on a friday, with scott that is. So we go see "Along Came Polly" which made me feel really lonely. not like i normally feel unlonely, but that on top of a sad excuse for a valentines day makes me wish that i could hibernate, like a bear. I like bears. They dont mess around, if they want something they tear shit up til they find it or just go to sleep for 6 months. Oh to be a bear. [insert longing expression here]
well continuing on with drama today, i never got around to writing adam's bio, since the comp. was monopolized, so hopefully i will be able to the next day. Then i drove around with juli farewell, danya, ashley, adn james and we succeeded in getting 3 $ upfront ads, a bunch of promises, cold pizza, and an hour of tardiness. on the plus side though, i saw the WATERFALL HOUSE!!! I <3 THE WATERFALL HOUSE!!! oh and they tore down the old house and are building a new one, but the waterfalls are gangsta as usual. THen i went up to my grandma's to lift. THEY COME BACK TOMMORROW SO I CAN STOP BEING HUNGRY!!!!! YEA!!!!!!! So we worked out for a little while after i re-hung my heavy bag, for some reason im still tired from swiimming. I wish i could have attended dinner with joefi and crew but i thought i was supposed to watch scott, which didnt occur, but somewhere in my mind i knew sat. meant something. It turns out my cousin from bermuda was supposed to visit, but he didnt, oh well, another check against me.
Valentines may be a commercial holiday, but it sure knows how to make a guy feel sad. Fuck valentines day, i hope it dies. sadfully urs, mark

// posted by Mark @ 11:53 PM

yo yo....today was pretty gangsta. School went by, then afetr school i went to gym and wnet home and showered then to debate and then drama. After drama i went home and chilled and then me and jofi and kevin decided to go visit matty k at work. Nici pags came along too! We were brief at the mall, as after we decided to rent 8mm and watch it at jofi's house. Reza came over to jofi's to watch it with us. Awesome movie, reza and kevin jofi were a little scared...meh, waddya gonna do



Quote of day, Me:"hey randi(my mom)
My dad: "dont call her randi, its weird, call her mommy"
Me: "So can i call you mark?"
My dad: "No, call me daddy, i like when you call me daddy"

yo yo....i've been thinking a lot lately so i figure'd i put my thoughts into words. I have this weird feeling, well its a feeling i've had for a while. Its like my head feels cloudy. Its hard to explain, its not just like i cant focus, i feel liek my mind and spirit is deterioating, like i'm spiraling into indifference. I have so many regrets. After watching the Rockland Symphony night at school with the kids from all over the county performing show tunes at really depressed me. I regretted sooo much how i spent my high school years. I wish i would've focused more on music, got private lessons, practiced more. I wish i could have started high school over, my goal would've been to perform on that night, right at the side of Jonathan Roth. In drama today i did not sing my part very well, normally it wouldnt of really bothered me that much, everyone has there bad days, but idk, for some reason it really hurt my spirit today, it really got to me, a lot more than it should have. I had a dream last nite that iw as doing some play or something and was unhappy with the role i got or something. I think this dream pretty culminates what i'm saying (thanks ruthie, but i'll analyze this one myself). If there are any simpsons fans out there you'll appreciate this analogy. I literally feel liek Lisa did when she thought she was going to get progessively dumber until she was jsut in a perpetual stuper. I'm not saying i'm gonna get dumber, i know i'm a smart guy, i dotn care waht others think(GONG) but i know i am so thats all that matters. But i feel like my life is a train track heading downhill eventually going to crash (someone remind me NOT to ride a train anymore). I guess college is a place that people see as a venue to start over but idk, i'm not really looking forward to college (contrary to most other seniors).

I guess the only thing that made today great was mr powers at jazz band, he's so funny, i love him with all my body, even my pee pee.

yo yo....jesus christ kevin, u psot to say that little tidbit but cant acutally post bout anything else?!?!? u disgust me

No need to be rude Meagan.

hey adam and joe, i least i don't tell the world my entire life story. i keep some things to myself because not everyone wants to know what i ate for lunch today. but if you really want to know, adam and joe listen closely and hang on my every word, i ate a chicken ceasar salad wrap that included chips and a pickle. i ate the whole wrap, except for the ends b/c there was really no point since it did not include any tomato and especially any chicken. I ate just a few chips and did not touch the pickle. I drank a 16 oz. coffee. The coffee had half and half in it and six sugar packets. yes it was quite good.

okay so today is my b-day! yay for me...i'm turning 18 which is weird because a lot of seniors in the highschool are turning 18 now too but hey, i'm special like that. Jess came home from Oswego so i was way excited about that. We hung out and later on as i was leaving her house i discovered that both out cars had been egged. Wow, i didn't realize we were so popular. So on Saturday we brought our cars to the car wash to clean that shit up and the headed to the mall, where i havent been in ages. Met up with a bunch of people, including some of the very authors of this blog, and ate at the one and only TGI Fridays. Jess told them it was my bday and the waiters came out and did that cheer thing. Later on that evening i was interrupted at approxomitly 3:34 am as i was trying to beat by previous record of driving from the cove to my house in under 7 minutes. How rude. I was speeding or something, didnt have my license on me and my inspection was 3 months overdue. You might be asking if i wear a big sign around myself that says, "Pick me, i have nothing better to do." And yes, i occasionally do. For some reason when you get pulled over at that time of the night, every police car in the tri county feels it is their duty to come and assist the officer who pulled the person over. They also feel the need to exit their vehicle and begin walking aimlessly around your car. The cop only gave me a ticket for the inspection. Fair enough. So by the time i pulled out there were 6 cop cars just sitting there. They must have felt important. So if anyone was driving drunk or stoned, which happens a lot in NR, your welcome. {Editors note: This is Meagan's only blog post, originally dated Tuesday October 14th, 2003 at 4:10 P.M. Since she never posts, The Ask Madden Staff decided to recycle her post.}

you know what the midwest is? young and restless.
where restless niggas might snatch your necklace
and next, these niggas might jack your lexus
somebody tell these niggas who kanye west is
i walk through the valley of chi where death is
top floor of the view alone will leave you breathless
try to catch it, it's kind of hard hard
gettin choked by detectives yeah YEAH now check the method
they be askin us questions, harass and arrest us
sayin "we eat pieces of shit like you for breakfast"
huh? y'all eat pieces of shit, what's the basis?
we aint goin nowhere, but got suits and cases
a trunk full of coke rental car from avis
my momma used to say only jesus can save us
well momma i know i act a fool
but i'll be gone till november i got packs to move I HOPE

What up. Almost forgot to blog today, but I was saved by Matty K. Still not sure how or why, but he definetly reminded me. Somehow. Anyway in response to Adams post.....if we ban kevin, then we must also ban Steve, Vincent, and Meagan (who posted once according to Adam). I think this is a decision for our loyal readers to make. So the Ask Madden Staff (or whats left of us) asks you, the reader, to holla back on this pressing matter: Should they stay or should they go? Let us know what you think. Moving on to today's not-so-eventful day. It was good because Pow Pow brought in Planet Wings, and we all ate like crazed animals. Me and Matty K resolved to eat some suicide wings after school at an undisclosed date. Drama was fun, me and Nici Paggs scene is coming along nicely. I tutored for a whopping hour and a half today, sucks. Ate dinner, blah, blah, blah, here I am. Oh yeah, new update, Karen is madd cool. We were talking about Harry Potter and other cool stuff. So holla at Kar Kar. Gonna go steal the Da Vinci Code. Peace

yo yo...i want to make a petition banning kevin from the blog until he decides to actually post. Cuz god knoss he reads it every 2 seconds so it wont be that hard(shouldn't be) for him to post. Everyone let him know, even tho i sure he reading this now, if u are, u suck.

yo yo...today wasnt bad at all. Third period we had this little play in the auditorium abotu AIDS. It was pretty dumba nd not informative. They amde us all go on stage to look at these AIDS quilts, me chris and kevin expressed our desire to not go up to mrs bassani cuz if we did people would look at us, and we hate that! Then school went along as usual. After school i went to my dealership to TCB(take care of business). After that had drama which rocked and then i signed upa t gym and worked out. Interestingly enough one of the cops that he had an encounter with was there, he talked to me, but only to tell me somethign bout adjusting a bench, he didnt recognize me. Soon me and kevin gotta try for the third time to finish our english project that should have taken 5 minutes. Meh, waddya gonna do. Cant wait to go to restaurant/jazz club on saturday with jofi kevin matty k and big jofi's.


guy in the AIDS play "Oh wait a sec, I'm dead! I don't need sleep!."

Chris to me "wow, i wont have to sleep anymore?! i cant wait till i die!"

oops.

my insult of the week: tara said: well, sucks for you, to which i responded: you'd suck for anyone. ah, le mon just. my anecdote of the month: on my way home from vermont on sunday, i ended up fixing the mobil station's toilet since no one wanted to and i had to piss. longer story can be told in person. anyway, today i stopped by bassani's 3rd period, expecting to seizure for the class, but when i got there it was just kevin and some other people, so i hung out with him the whole period. i guess the rest of the class was at the math thing. so, sorry adam, u missed out, but i'll come back during an actual class so i can seizure n shit. no worries. keith called me up yesterday all in a bigass huff about some shit. he was like "yo, you gotta get me out of here!" then hung up, i tried to call him back but there was no answer i tried sparatically for like an hour. mark, is somethin up with keith? let me know. today afterschool i was doin somethin in the garage, where i came upon my old skateboard. i don't know why, but i took it out and started skating. i remember the basics, but the rest will come back to me sooner or later. damn, i'm so weird and messed up. am i gangsta, or skater? definitely the preference would be gangsta who can bust a skateboard move. that would be aight. but there's NO WAY i would ever go skater. take it easy all.
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yo yo....came into school 5th period today. U should try it, makes day go by a whole lot quicker. Anyway, in gym today we played hockey, oh no folks, not regular hockey, HARDCORE HOCKEY! you might be askign urselves what was so different bout the game. I'll tell you. Dwyer AND Galati palyed! Byt he end of the agme i was soooooo tired, cuz iw as goin all out, i was all over the court tryign so hard. Peopel may wodner why i try so hard in gym and here's why, i like gym. I am nto ashamed to admit it, i like gym! On other note amy came to rehearsal today and i wasnt that nervous, yay(like P to the A to the G)

What up. Faithful blogger Joefi upholding the daily update tradition. Hopefully the Ask Madden Staff will follow in suit. Anyway where to start...overall today sucked. Not just sucked like drinking straw, we're talking sump pump, hoover vacuum, high class rent-a-girl suck. Man, I almost didn't have the heart to do my scene at drama today. Its so awesome though, I had to. I hope it'll be awesome anyway, it needs a ton of work. But I think me and P to the A to the G will make a killing none-the-less. I look foward to robbing you all blind. Moving on....bad news about Nick and I feel really bad. His big role as JVJ was something I looked foward to....now that his ankle is broken I don't know what will happen, but everyones continued support will help ol' Jeany get back on his feet. Hopefully. No pun intended. Unfortunetly, I heard the main man of Physical Education everywhere was involved....yes folks, Couch Dwyer was inadvertantly the cause of this (I think). No one blames Dwyer of course, but when the star of our show gets maimed.....lets just say if another teacher seemingly steps out of line with Nick.....they are gonna have a visit by the OG. Especially Bassani. I hope its her, Adam and Kevin and Matty K would be all over that one. Sorry guys, no interesting dreams tonight. Well maybe tonight, but last night I got nothing. One last thought....In regard to the secret identities of certain readers....I know we uncovered the identity of 'A loyal reader', but it'd be nice to hear from him sometimes. He was there through the rough times, and spoke the immortal guestbook words "never let go OG's, never let go". On the other side of readers, the cynical scourge of several blogs (Nici Paggs as well) J.G.G. may have been uncovered finally (see my previous post's holla backs). He has yet to confess, so this one is for you J.G.G: Peace

What up. Been a few days, still not back to good old happy-go-lucky Joefi, life is still treating me cruelly, but I can pick out a few things that made my day bright. The first of which would be the obvious entry into the Music Honor Society. I wanted to get in for a while, so its an acomplishment indeed. I wasn't the best act there, Nicole and Veronica both killed me, they were amazing. Matty K was on top of things as usual (see profile for Matty K's comment of the evening). All the other performers were excellent as well. Anyway, todays amusing thoughts; all in a Joefi minute. Ready, Set, Read. I was talking to Veronica about how the entire world should be one big musical, and everytime there is a problem, it should be a song. And everytime anything happens, is should be a huge dance/chorus number where even the seemingly uncoordinated tear it up. Yes, on my part incredibly homosexual, but I like the idea. Whatever. New topic. Mr. Powers White sweater-vest-over- red-shirt wins the attire award of the evening. One Two No Carbs go. Jazz band will get that one. Segue. I love my guitar. A whole lot. I wish it was a chick so I could hold it and tell it I love it. I know I can already do that, but its creepy, and it doesn't smell pretty. Last thought, two nights ago after eating White Castle at 2 am, I had a very strange dream. I was in Fiesta Cancun doing the tango with Nicole Pagnotta, with a white rose in my mouth. The guitar player/singer was Adam. And he was really good too. If you have any idea what this dream means, enlighten me and holla back. Time to go to sleep, where 'in my dreams' are a reality, and the harsh sting of real life is a gentle afterthought in my carefree world of hapiness. Sometimes I think I should be doing drugs.

yo yo....i sit here in fear as my wound on my knee seems to be becoming infected. I think i'm a goner. I can honestly say i lived a very uneventful life, with mostly jsut chillin, and i wouldn't of had it any other way. So i just wanna say to all my friends that i really cherished my friendship. To all my enemies , va fonngul, and to all who have done wrong to me, u'll get urs ::shakes fist in air:: contact vincent jofi kevin or mark about when services to be held

i think they should make a fortune cookie that says: "clapping wastes time" they should also make a fortune cookie that says: "you will have to shit in less than a half an hour"

u think u know, but u have no idea... this is the diary of sloth, dont hate. lol, ok that was ghetto but i have zero energy to delete it. I got at most 4 hours of sleep last night, due to my morals and to "LIGHTS OUT!!!" which IS BY FAR THE BEST GAME INVENTED IN THE PAST HALF-DECADE!!! i had so much fun at Gong's, it was crawesome!!! the only bad part of the evening was when i was cold, and when i klutzed it up at cicero's and lost the last piece of chicken on my buffalo chicken slice, and sauced up myself, i feel sry for anyone who couldnt be in attendence. I must say one of the better experiences of the new year.
RIGHT NOW IM SOOO COLD!!! ITS RIDICULOUS!!! there is that saying that u dont know how much u love something until it was gone. two words "body hair". {this isnt scrabble, u should be able to figure it out} dont worry its not on my own accord, i had to for sections tommorrow, but boy am i cold, nay im FREEZING!!! BRRRRRRR!!!!!! I SURE AM COLD. PEACE!

HEY PALS!!! today was tres wet so ill explain what happened yesterday, touring choir was aight, we're singing one of my songs from area all-state, so i like that. but the highlight was when we listened to THE AWAKENING which is my favorite song ever!!! Veronica and mary-e.b. cried when we listened to it. i brought in a burned copy the other day to school to give to jenny, but i ended up giving it to kevin bc it is that awesome!!! the song is sad, which i like, i really like sad songs. Actually i love sad songs, they for some reason take to my likening.
Adrienne yesterday in study hall said how she was gonna be in OSWEGO which is mad cold, but she said that when i was waking up for school i should think how she just got in for partying, but TOUCHE no school today, so i win. We reminised yesterday about everyone who was in our 6th grade class whcih was cool, but disheartening since a lot of people arent how they used to be.
like kristen felker didnt use to be a stick, and some people arent even in our school anymore oh well

yo yo...today i was talking to Mr. Samoylo and when i left he said"you're always really nice to me adam, i really appreciate it." it felt really good, defiantely one of the recognizable feel good moments of my life.

yo yo....todya was gangsta, i came into school 6th period, so day went by fast. in fisics jared was putting numbing gel in his mouth, good stuff. Then the real reason why i bothered to even coem to school, hockey with dwyer. I went all otu first game, me and dwyer were goin at it, and when i had by back turned to him i backhanded it off the wall and got around him and eveyrone was "oooing", was gangsat. Then i fell on my knee which was already scabbign so it was all bloody. After school pow pow met reza and chris, and also pow pow said he wants to play basketball with us! yay! After school me and reza went to his deli and ate.
Last nite's dream

i dotn know it too specifically but i do know there was this hosue and we dumped gasoline in it to burn it down, i lit the fire but jofi matty k and john Mcearlane wanted to stay in. Jofia nd John then came out but matty k still wanted to stay in. I dont know what it means. Myabe it means MATTY K IS GANGSTA! yea, that seems right

yo yo, i tired so dotn feel liek psoting much. I will share with you somethign that someon said that has continued to make me laugh and smile ALL day....in health robert is known as "pharmacy rob", cuz well, he works at a pharmacy. So after learning of his tobacco smoking past garret McSharra said "looks liek pharmacy rob isn't so pharmacy!" o boy that made me laugh. Health is also cool cuz casey olberman is there and she is tres gorgeous. God bless beatiful people. Other news, amy came to drama today. It was weird, she called me to tell me she was coming, and when i was on my way to school i was getting madd butterflies (lots of, not angry ones), its so weird, i was nervous bout seeing her, cuz i havnt seen her in a while. Meh. she goin to rcc now so maybe we'll become good friends again. We'll see how that turns out. I leave you with how mr powers coutned off the measures in jazz band tonite..."take it from C, liek coco puffs, which i cant eat anymore, 1...2....1, 2, no carbs go!'' yes, he's on a no carb diet. he's doin great tho, go pow pow!

-fin

What up. Today after Jazz band I got a house salad supreme from Veto's on 202. Its really amazingly good, with lots of nice stuff in it. If you are serious about salads, I suggest you all give it a try. Anyway, as I brought it to my room and closed the door, a feeling struck me. As I closed myself into my room to eat that salad I felt like I was hiding my feelings from the world. When I am out I am a very pleasant guy. But when I'm alone I feel alone, like no one is out there. I don't know why I am feeling this way, but it sinks in all the time. I do my best to fight it but I am overwhelmed sometimes. Just thought I would share this with our readers, since the blog is the place to state how you feel. Sigh. You know when something insignifigant happens and no matter how small or dumb it seems, you blow it up to be some incredible sign of something? I do that all the time. See signs in little things. I am sad.

yo sup, i just got a quick question and statement. question: anyone know who this mysterious j. g. g. is thats all of a sudden holla backing? i think their real initials are s. p., and if i'm right, i'm real excited, cause that would be mad tight.
statement: damn, it feels good to be a gangsta...
take it easy all 1

yo yo, i jsut woek up(10pm) from a nap. I gonan watch real world then eat dinner then back to sleep. I hAd a WEIRD ass dream. First all i rememebr is being liek soem sort of cop and helping on soem raid of this building. Then inside i rmemebr kevin steve and amanda freidman being there and dustin. I rememebr them playing a prank on me, the prank was cutting off the skin on my head like on Hannibal. Then puttign it back on. I was cool bout it. Then me and steve were jokign about how gross it was, as if we were trying to gross jenny out about something or scare her bout animals. That made kevin sick and he puked on soem of my body parts. So some stuff coudlnt be reattatched. But the only piece of skin that couldnt be attatched was a link to a website i had tatooed on my face. After that we were in a mall and steve said it was the size of one his lecture hall classes, we promptly told him to shut the fuck up. Then we saw amber sacamano applying for a job in management at chilis. Me and reza thenwere hanging around by the bar learnign the trade. He helped this guy make vodka and apple juice drinks. I dotn know much bout alcohol but i think he put entirely too much vodka in. Then we helped sign happy engagement or something to this guy over the loud speaker. Me and this other guy added this echo aprt at the end, madd gangsta. Anyoen have an idea on what the dream could mean? holla back

What up. Man lack of updates is a plague among us, no one seems to be blogging. Hopefully My every other day reliability will help the other ask madden staff to humor us once in a while. Matty K is working a ton now, understandable, but Adam use to blog twice a day at times. Vincent might be busy, but Kevin certainly isn't. Mark? Steve? Has Meagan ever posted? Ok whatever. I suppose I should just cut to the chase and entertain you with the new reason why my life is pathetic. Nothing specific really, it just is. Sigh. Anyway heres whats new in Joefi land: The Roots are awesome. They are so amazing that if I wasn't so diverse in my musical preferance I'd be like Matt and go totally hip hop. They are definetly the pinicle of the genre. Today I had a shitload of laundry to fold and put away, which sucked. I need a way to spruce things up, so I thought real hard and came up with it. I could make it seem so much more hardcore and cool by flipping on some hot beat by the Roots. So I did, and me folding my laundry sounded like a hardcore basketball game or a driveby shooting. To anyone else I must have seemed like a dork, but man, it made a boring task really cool feeling. I tried it on making my bed, it worked. If only they blasted the Roots during school it might not suck so much. Ok time to eat, havn't eaten today since my bagel for lunch because I'm poor. Peace

P.S. I almost chewed off my left foot from a lack of Nicole Pagnotta's incredibly interesting blog entries.

What up. First off thanks to all who attended the OG superbowl party. I hope you guys had a good time with the really freakin big screen. Ok, Story time. Today I was hungry for some lunch, so I decided to go to that fine eating establishment, the colosal king of calories, the quality dining facility known as Wendy's. If at any point during my Wendys ass kissing did you think I was describing McDonalds, you should be dragged into the street and shot. Back to the story, I got my number six biggie size, flashed my gold card for a discount, and took my lonesome seat to begin scarfing down the new addition to my thighs. Suddenly, I noticed a man helping someone who appeared to have fallen right outside on the sidewalk. The mexican family of twelve gajillion (slight exageration folks) all crowed around the window and blocked my view of the outside. Wendy's personel were alerted and rushed to the aide of this woman. It turns out this lady fell on a small patch of ice outside, and this man who I originally thought was her husband was yelling at the Wendy's manager. They came inside, and I noticed that no matter what question the Wendy's manager asked this lady, she repeated "I'm alright" as if she did not fully understand. I soon realized this was a mentally handicapped woman, and the man was her caretaker (A relative perhaps, or maybe a spouse). He yelled some more, filled out some sort of form, and I believe they got free food. I observed the whole happenings from a nearby table. Ten dollars to anyone who can correctly identify why this event is a metaphor for my life.

before i recap, i would like to note my newfound obsession, the used. i used to be all into emo, then i got all gangsta and kevin made note of that last night. so i've decided to get back into emo and i gotta say i'm liking both emo and rap equally at this point. anyway, recap::
last night after i got home i got a call from joefi saying, were bored, come here and do something. so i went in my room, grabbed my lighter and 250 firecrackers. we only ended up using one. in the blockbuster parking lot. then drove away. so then i got the wakeboard and got it ready while joe helped himself to some of the jack i keep under my bed (a gallon) we wanted to film my venture but my camera crapped out. stupid 10 year old camera. so i went and didnt even get to do one run before they were all like "theres someone here, lets go" but then i nagged so we came back and got a few runs in. i fell every time, and the last time my wakeboard fell off and bashed my shins. i woke up this morning with big red shins. ouch. then we went to gongs and via a few lucky shots i became pool champion. horray. after this morning's sledding i came home as my sister was leaving, so i was real excited cuz i knew who was waiting for me inside....MUFFIN!!!!i played with muffin until work. what a day. or lack of one. my shins hurt. take it easy all.

P.S. yo mr. powers if ur readin this, hi.

yo yo....tonite was madd fun. I went to the rockland symphony concert, but it was really student singers from the county with the orchestral accompanying them. It was madd good. After that me mark jofi nick and Jonathan Roth(that's right, mr roth's son) went to the nanuet diner. Good times, good times indeed. Jonathan is really cool, i hope we hang out with him more in the future. And he sings AMAZING! He's real funny too. ta ta