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yo yo...this goes out to those of you who aren't in college yet. take advantage of the teachers you have now. you will miss having a 25 person class, i know i did. especially if you've had mr galati and then go to college you will desperately miss it. also, if you've had mr roth, take advantage of him, you def will not find any other teachers like him.

yo yo...so i'm in college. weird. here's how the day went

so i started packing last nite and hung out with steve and jenny the whole day, i'm really glad i spent my last day with them. karen asked if i was going out and i proudly said no, cuz i'd rather spend my last day with them. i woke up and finished and they came over and we had a last breakfast( me steve jenny kevin mark) and karen stopped by! so then we said goodbye and then we went to have our last finkles with jofi minus mark. sayign goodbye to jofi was definately the hardest. wow, i'm starting to cry jsut writing bout it. He said he had gifts for us and my eyes started to tear before he said anything else. he said he coudlnt afford antyhing so he gave us things that meant a lot to him. he gave kevin one of his Dragonball Z figures (piccolo) because of their dragonball z bond, to mark he gavce his toy monkey from montreal, so he could make his rooma monkey room like his room at home....and to me he gave me wat he said was his most prized possession(besides his batman comic), the first episode of power rangers on tape. in all honesty, it was probably the best gift anyone has given and i would take that over 1000 any day. I didnt get to say by to my sisters cuz they werent home, i didnt think much of it at the time, but after i left i really regret it. i said goodbye to ym dog liek 7 times, i kept goign back in and hugging. anyone who has a dog might understand wat i talkin bout....last nite me and my sister could tell that simba knew we were leaving, she always knows when elana leaves, she seemed friskier but then sadder. i feel bad for her, we both left. same with lauren, i feel bad that both her siblings left. Going away really makes u realize how much you love people.
So i get up to albany and when i park bob is there walkin around. he came to help chris. luckily good ol mark was done bringing stuff to his room so he helped me bring stuff to my room. Its all set up nwo, new speakers, comp tv and everything, cept i couldnt have my microwave(they dont allow separate ones) and i havnt hooked up my ps2 yet. i went out to eat with me mom and said goodbye, and alas, saying goodbye really makes u realize how much you love people.
Theres a guitar player next door and a few of hsi friends were chillin and one had bongos, so i said "who's the guitarist, lets jam!" ( i have my flute) so we went to this kid room and jammed with bass , guitar and bongos. was good cept they suck. neitehr knows scaled or keys. they "jsut play notes", god, at least they knew the note names. well the guitarist knew chords. i had to show them keys and stuff, and the bassist didnt know how to bass. what i mean is he doesnt know wat the role of the bass is....he was acting liek it was a guitar. ugh. was fun tho
then i chilled in kevin and andrews room, i feel bad for kevin, he never gonna have peace in his room....he's living with andrew so u know, people in out and all over. then me and mark walked home and i finished setting up, i typed for a while so i'll tune in later

yo yo....i started thinkin bout today on the way back from the mall bout my friends i'd be missing when i go away. Its weird, cuz u think bout people you've gone weeks without seeing while u lived here, so it shouldnt be that hard to do it again, right? well what bout those people you see all the time. liek since steve was home was school i think i talk or see him at least every other day. and jenny too. its gonna be hard not seein them all time. i thought bout some others too
jofi, i am really going miss you more than you prolly think. you really are one of the best friends i've ever had and such an amazing person. you're one of the few people who are awesome at virtually everything he does. you didnt even wanan join the debate team and wound up being the best debater on the team! your one of those peopel where success is guaranteed, you can have every odd stacked agaisnt you in your life and you will still somewhere far in life. if you ever come to visit you'll always have a bed to sleep on in my rooom.
matty k, i am really gonna miss you to. your one of my favorite people to be around. i can't remember (cuz it doesnt exist) the last time anyone was mad at you or you were mad at anyone. thats because of the type of person you are. you have talent oozing out of every pore of your body and i really hope you use that to your advantage. i've really never seen anyone with the talent you have, and i've never really seen people with a lot of the things you have.
thats it for now, ta ta

yo yo....my sentimentality has really started to concern me. Don't get me wrong, i've always known i am a VERY sentimental person. I'm one of those people who find it very hard to throw things away and move forward. Example. I just ordered new computer speakers but i felt bad for upgrading over current ones, even though they not good speakers. I kinda felt liek movign past them is like moving past my childhood i guess. I always get that feeling when i look at old stuff in my house. its a really weird feeling and i can't really describe it and i not sure anyone knows wat i talkin bout.
Also, a few weeks ago i was in sports authority and i saw a man with his daughter probably about 14 or 15 and a song maybe around 11 or 12. The son was asking ltos of questions bout guns he saw, asking if they real, etc. The girl seemed more mature and reserved. It really got to me cuz it reminded me of what my child hood used to be like, reminded me of what my childhood used to be like.
One more sidenote. Vincents last nite was the other nite and when i dropped him home i figured it would be easier this time around cuz its the second time he left, and maybe i was used to it. no. i still cried like a baby the second i drove away. chow!....mein

SURGEON GENERALS WARNING

Do not talk to John Mcearlane...the boy does not know how to keep a conversation private. all he knows how to do is tell everyone in the world. for ur sake....do not talk to him!

SURGEON GENERALS WARNING

Do not talk to John Mcearlane...the boy does not know how to keep a conversation private. all he knows how to do is tell everyone in the world. for ur sake....do not talk to him!

me in sand 

yo yo...so we ( me steve jenny kevin jess) went to the beach today. who knows why. not a big beach fan. mainyl cuz i afriad of ocean/ killer ocean animals, or jsut big ones. so on the way there i kept complainin cuz i said we shoulda just went to lake welch cuz its mad close. we get there and me steve and kevin wind up playin in the water for a while. tho at oen point i felt something solid touch my foot so i BOLTED out of the water. anyways, we had fun palying in the water. after the water we I played in the sand, nobody else likes the sand. i buried myself and then everyone made me look like woman with sand.
after we went home and me steve jenny and kevin went out to dinner for garret's goin away dinner. he goin to Tulane in New Orleans. we're def gonna visit durin mardi gras.
Tonite we were hangin out at wendy's and kevin and nick had a soda drinkin competition. if kevin could drink a 2 liter diet pepsi in under 4:30 we would buy him wendys. nick was jsut trying to beat him for fun. neither finished...nick puked....kevin almost did....both are winners in my book!

i'm going to albany, but i can't say that i'm really excited, i kinda wish i was going to northeastern, i would def much rather be in boston...but also college in general is scaring me, i'm really not looking forward to it like everyone else is, when i go i'm gonna feel like i'm trapped and when my parents (or whoever moves me in) leave its really gonna hit home that well, i'm not home anymore. i hope these next 2 weeks go real slowly

i really wish i had another choice besides going to college...

yo yo...i jsut got back from watching anime with chris nick and ed. it was weird, we watched "Yu Yu Hakusho - Spirit Detective"...i never watched anime before, but i ahve to admit, as it progessed i kept wanting to watch more of it...we watched it for almsot 3 hours....the funniest part tho was when there would be a cliff hanger at the end of an episode so we woudl jsut pop the next disc in...chric and nick said them waiting the next day for it is wat got them through school, and chris said he never played high school or middle school sports becuase he wouldnt be able to watch his shows otherwise.

yo yo...tonite was amdd fun. iw ent tos teves hosue at liek 2 and me him and jenny went to mall...we sat and played with this music maker program makign beats and songs in the macintosh store for liek 2 hours, it was awesome. then mark and BIG D came and met us. that was awesome. we chilled and ate and went back to steve's house....me steve and jenny were in the mall so long we had 2 meals...after we went back to steves and ended the nite singing songs on the porch at midnite...good times indeed, big d def needs to hang out with us more often

yea so i home from work...FOREVER...i quit.....andrew and bob told me i'd be makign 13 an hour, and after the first paycheck i onyl got 11, i asked why he siad it was liek cuz i was pretty mcuh learning how to do stuff, that was ok, i understood, but after the last paycheck it was still only 11, i asked why today, he said he rethought it cuz i missed a day or somethin, even tho andrew did too, and even tho he TOLD me i'd be makign 13...so i said i had anotehr job be4 this where i made 10 an hour off the books (hopin he'd negotiate), eh said then go back to it, so i said fine, if u not gonna gimme 13 then i wont coat another floor....AND THATS THE END OF MY CHAPTER! yea, so i think i i shoudl have my mom's lawyer now get the money i am owed...or tell my dad, then he in trouble
dotn mind tho..made plenty of money and now can enjoy the rest of my summer! tho i will miss workin wit bob and andrew, had some good times chillin wit them all day

yo yo....this goes to jofi and stinga. when i kicked everyone off the blog, it was cuz no one was contributing anymore. i never wanted us to separate. i love u guys. that why i inviting u back to the blog, if you want

yo yo....tonite was fun, me, steve and jenny played a favorite game of ours that me and kevin and jofi used to play. we never named it, but you rpetty much pick a girl u know, and u discuss their physical flaws, EVERYTHING, everything that keeps them from beign absolutely perfect. its fun. however it was hard for jenny, cuz she doesnt udnerstand how guys can be so picky but we explained to her that we could cuz guys know their faults and dont care if someone were to brign attention to it. girls are opposite. she really started freakin out the flawas we foudn in certain people whom she thought to be flawless, but we tried to make her understand that ur supposed to be picky, cuz it anything that keeps them from being perfect. fun game tho, do try it!